Are my standards increasing, or is the quality of the options decreasing. I feel that I’m merely getting to know my options better and they are just worse than I thought. I need a new pool to draw from. I’ll find the right people eventually.

I was doing well with my health but something has set me back significantly. I was quite certain of a cause, however I came across something that conflicted that information. Cross testing basically made me revert to poor health. So another month or two before I can pick up my research.

Due to this though, I have spent a lot of possible productive time at home just watching shows. As such, I have been added a fair bit of new stuff to my Japanese media reviews. Pairing this up with my Japanese lessons though has been very productive, so time not lost entirely.

So someone pointed out that there is stuff on here from the original host before I was running this as a site. It looks like I moved a bunch of data and then forgot about it.

It prompted me to skim through some of the old area of the site and I found stuff that is way way old and was supposed to be sorted 10 years ago.

And I’m not going to bother. Maybe one day. Maybe I should just delete it. Meh.

Nothing really of note here, other than a site I use regularly completely over hauling their site, forgetting what it used to look like and then telling me to move on.

ozgunsales

What can you see with no eyes?

The contrast between useful and apathetic cultural ideologies and has been revealed to me recently. A new piece of wisdom that has further reduced my already tiny tolerance for apathy around me.

So I decided after a long time to start recording and rating all the things created in Japan that I have watched. It’s under THINGS or you can click the link below:

http://www.anmanindustries.com/wp/?page_id=325

Most of the scores and reviews are very short and simple as I never really intended to do dull reviews of everything I had seen. This is mostly for my own purposes, but perhaps you could use it yourself.

Ive gone back to my japanese lessons. Im getting tired of all of this. Such a useless place to be.

So… I was taken away from my duties for rest and to deal with the baby by the look of things. Once baby settled I was given some media to consume that has broken me again. Im still lost and desperate for answers because of it. God seems to like making sure my… updates… are violent.

Man of clay.

I got some releif today. But even that ended with bitter realisations. Couldn’t even explain it to my wife properly. Looks like im changing again. Will explain why i was taken off my previous work. Things stood still for months, now they are moving too fast.

Today has not been a good day. I feel I am the last of my kind. I know this is not true, but it is how I feel. I only post this nonsense here as a means of relief. What would random internet visitors make of these ramblings. I can only write so many letters and say so many prayers before the weakness of man sets in. A random cry to the world perhaps.

Dear God, give me the hands I need. Or new eyes to see. Is there anyone out there prepared for this? Or must I teach one? Must I make from scratch? If so, only you can give me the wisdom to do so. This fire burns its fuel. What will it engulf? Nothing? The one that keeps it, or the world?

To seek the face of God… Has many meanings and many paths to such an achievement. I’m running out of time.

Still have no received my next set of works. Getting itchy.

You want to wake up to free yourself of the image of Europa.

But it is not possible.